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6.25.2007
6.14.2007
Is it too much?
It's been getting harder and harder for me to sleep lately. I've been throwing on one of the movies that I must have watched over a thousand times and curling up with my blanket and pillow. In the morning, I wake to another day with no real human interaction to motivate me. The drives to and from work all I can think about is my empty room. I keep telling my self that I'm better off single and free; but am I and why? Does having a life partner really slow down my personal development? Does it really hamper my life style? I tell everyone that I'm picky about my girls. But the truth is that the only reason I'm looking for someone is so that I know I have someone to come home to and see. I'll have someone to snuggle up to at night and keep them safe from the world. I'll have someone with the authority to tell me what to do to keep me safe from my self. I want someone to create and share those great Hallmark moments with. Is that too much to want? Is too much to want someone just to give them those moments in life that they'll never forget. I've never had one of those moments where I'm sitting on a hill overlooking the city with someone I knew really well enough to cherish it. Call me gay, emo, or what have you. I just want someone to make feel special.
6.10.2007
6.03.2007
The down was always said to be better than the up. It's a new day with only four hours of real sleep and I feel like a new man. Is something to be said about my extracurricular activities? It's not illegal, but not on the clean street either. Is our fix part of who we are? Are we categorized by the things we do under the moon?
I went to grab lunch for everybody at work today and I could not help but to appreciate what the day was. A nice warm day with forecast skies. The type of day you would take your family to the beach on. It kind of brought back a small sense of nostalgia; a reminder of who I am and where I come from. I took it as a cue to switch up the playlist from electronica to the island beats. Driving on post with the warm sun on my skin and Santana in my ears gave me small bit of satisfaction with my life. As comfort started to land on my skin like ocean mist at the beach I thought about last night. Would I have felt this way if I didn't do what I did last night?
I went to grab lunch for everybody at work today and I could not help but to appreciate what the day was. A nice warm day with forecast skies. The type of day you would take your family to the beach on. It kind of brought back a small sense of nostalgia; a reminder of who I am and where I come from. I took it as a cue to switch up the playlist from electronica to the island beats. Driving on post with the warm sun on my skin and Santana in my ears gave me small bit of satisfaction with my life. As comfort started to land on my skin like ocean mist at the beach I thought about last night. Would I have felt this way if I didn't do what I did last night?
The log
The night starts off with some wireless and soda up at Coffeetalk. Hellfire and W0lf pop some DXM with Phreelance to get stuck in the darkness of the night. We're watching Gothica Right now. A dark room with three laptops, two robo-trippers and a nanny. Hellfire has Jayna. Phreelance is working on some images and I'm just chilling watching everything around me. The world expands and contracts temperatures of hot and cold. All I can see is four screens and an Asian face. Hellfire's phone goes off; "Lono's down", and they're off to go fix Lono. Lono is Hellfire's server at work. Shit! I should have gone with them. "You can see the wet foot prints on the floor." This kind of like the Shining. This ghost is going to scare her into escaping. " It's dark and my eyes are dilated. I just popped ten more pills; my point five. Decided to relocate to the couch until Hellfire and Phreelance get back. Through out the night I hear a cricket playing it's song in the night.
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