Is it too much?

It's been getting harder and harder for me to sleep lately. I've been throwing on one of the movies that I must have watched over a thousand times and curling up with my blanket and pillow. In the morning, I wake to another day with no real human interaction to motivate me. The drives to and from work all I can think about is my empty room. I keep telling my self that I'm better off single and free; but am I and why? Does having a life partner really slow down my personal development? Does it really hamper my life style? I tell everyone that I'm picky about my girls. But the truth is that the only reason I'm looking for someone is so that I know I have someone to come home to and see. I'll have someone to snuggle up to at night and keep them safe from the world. I'll have someone with the authority to tell me what to do to keep me safe from my self. I want someone to create and share those great Hallmark moments with. Is that too much to want? Is too much to want someone just to give them those moments in life that they'll never forget. I've never had one of those moments where I'm sitting on a hill overlooking the city with someone I knew really well enough to cherish it. Call me gay, emo, or what have you. I just want someone to make feel special.